Feeling a little down....

I went to my OB on tuesday. I had a feeling it wouldn't be a great appointment. Since last week, I could tell my blood pressure was elevated. I had started getting headaches, dizziness and just couldn';t keep up with normal daily activities. I had checked my BP last friday and it was around 155/85! Not super high, but not good, especially at 6 months pregnant.

When I went to my OB appointment, my blood pressure was 147/76. So my Dr. decided to put me on Aldomet again, just like my other 2 pregnancies. This time I am on 250 mg 3X a day. I am also on light bed rest. I am not allowed to do much that will get my heart rate up. So minimal housework, minimal getting out, etc. On one hand I am relieved because all of this has zapped my energy completly. On the other hand it makes me feel so lazy. I also have to see the Dr. every 2 weeks now.

The Aldomet makes me so tired and I am experiencing headaches. I don't remember feeling this way last time. I need to call my OB on it, but I want to give it a few more days to see if it changes. I feel like my morning dose almost knocks me out. Not good with a 2 yr old. I have been able to get Emm to take her nap in the morning the last few days because she has been sick w/ allergies. Thank you benadryl. That won't last long though.

I am a little worried. This is the earliest I have ever had to be on meds and bed rest for the high blood pressure. I am 25 weeks. With Dawson I was 34 weeks when I started meds, with Emm I believe it was 32 weeks. Can't remember for sure though??

It scares me when I am up doing normal stuff and I get a headache and pounding head and I can literally feel the blood rushing to my head. I am afraid of toxemia, stroke, etc. I need to take it easier than I am, but it is all I can do to keep off my feet as much as I have. I hate asking Mike to do things for me all the time. I don't want to be a nag. Then if I don't ask it won't get done.

I have been having the kids help more. It can be painstaking, but it has helped a lot. They have always picked up their toys. Now they also pick up trash, other stuff, round up their dirty laundry and take it to the laundry room. Dawson has been folding/putting his laundry away for a while, now we are working on Emm. I fold all the other laundry and M ike puts it all away. Dawson is incharge of sweeping the floors and vacuuming the rugs, Mike mops. I still do dishes since there isn't a ton of bending and moving with that. I have to feel like I am doing something.

Luckily we have a year supply of just about everything we need from soap to meals for next to nothing I might add. Thank you coupons!! We have a ton of frozen meals and boxed meals I have bought over the last month or so. So dinners are simple and make the clean up minimal.

I bought Emm Dora candyland, princess memory, cinderella color wonder books, and some puzzles that we can play with on the couch or bed. We read a lot when I don't have a headache. We also watch TV and talk. I miss our polay groups and going to the park though. I need to find somethinsg to keep me off my feet now and entertain me so I don't get too bummed.

Peyton is growing great. His heartrate was 155 on tues. I am measuring on time. I don't get more than 2-5 contractions a day now. That makes me happy! I will be induced somewhere between 37 and 38 weeks as long as my blood pressure stays stable. So 82-89 days left!!!

I will be so happy when he is my arms!!!! Sadly we decided that he will be our last. I am afraid to go thru thgis after 30. I will be 29 when he is born. We may adopt down the read though. I have always had 4 kids in my mind.

Sorry my post is down. I am just scared, tired and bummed.

Feeling a little down....

I went to my OB on tuesday. I had a feeling it wouldn't be a great appointment. Since last week, I could tell my blood pressure was elevated. I had started getting headaches, dizziness and just couldn';t keep up with normal daily activities. I had checked my BP last friday and it was around 155/85! Not super high, but not good, especially at 6 months pregnant.

When I went to my OB appointment, my blood pressure was 147/76. So my Dr. decided to put me on Aldomet again, just like my other 2 pregnancies. This time I am on 250 mg 3X a day. I am also on light bed rest. I am not allowed to do much that will get my heart rate up. So minimal housework, minimal getting out, etc. On one hand I am relieved because all of this has zapped my energy completly. On the other hand it makes me feel so lazy. I also have to see the Dr. every 2 weeks now.

The Aldomet makes me so tired and I am experiencing headaches. I don't remember feeling this way last time. I need to call my OB on it, but I want to give it a few more days to see if it changes. I feel like my morning dose almost knocks me out. Not good with a 2 yr old. I have been able to get Emm to take her nap in the morning the last few days because she has been sick w/ allergies. Thank you benadryl. That won't last long though.

I am a little worried. This is the earliest I have ever had to be on meds and bed rest for the high blood pressure. I am 25 weeks. With Dawson I was 34 weeks when I started meds, with Emm I believe it was 32 weeks. Can't remember for sure though??

It scares me when I am up doing normal stuff and I get a headache and pounding head and I can literally feel the blood rushing to my head. I am afraid of toxemia, stroke, etc. I need to take it easier than I am, but it is all I can do to keep off my feet as much as I have. I hate asking Mike to do things for me all the time. I don't want to be a nag. Then if I don't ask it won't get done.

I have been having the kids help more. It can be painstaking, but it has helped a lot. They have always picked up their toys. Now they also pick up trash, other stuff, round up their dirty laundry and take it to the laundry room. Dawson has been folding/putting his laundry away for a while, now we are working on Emm. I fold all the other laundry and M ike puts it all away. Dawson is incharge of sweeping the floors and vacuuming the rugs, Mike mops. I still do dishes since there isn't a ton of bending and moving with that. I have to feel like I am doing something.

Luckily we have a year supply of just about everything we need from soap to meals for next to nothing I might add. Thank you coupons!! We have a ton of frozen meals and boxed meals I have bought over the last month or so. So dinners are simple and make the clean up minimal.

I bought Emm Dora candyland, princess memory, cinderella color wonder books, and some puzzles that we can play with on the couch or bed. We read a lot when I don't have a headache. We also watch TV and talk. I miss our polay groups and going to the park though. I need to find somethinsg to keep me off my feet now and entertain me so I don't get too bummed.

Peyton is growing great. His heartrate was 155 on tues. I am measuring on time. I don't get more than 2-5 contractions a day now. That makes me happy! I will be induced somewhere between 37 and 38 weeks as long as my blood pressure stays stable. So 82-89 days left!!!

I will be so happy when he is my arms!!!! Sadly we decided that he will be our last. I am afraid to go thru thgis after 30. I will be 29 when he is born. We may adopt down the read though. I have always had 4 kids in my mind.

Sorry my post is down. I am just scared, tired and bummed.

I love and admire my husband

He has been such a support thru this pregnancy. He was working 2 jo0bs thru my other 2 pregnancies so he wasn't there to help aas much, even though he wanted to. Anyways I am sick, again. Grrrr. I stayed home from church and slept most of the day, since it was the only day I could rest and recooperate.

I woke up and he and Dawson were cleaning the living room and had finished the kitchen. I hadn't even hinted or asked. He got the kids ready for bed and everything. It was such a great thing for him to do!

I admire him for his hard work. He started working as an entry level draftsman 4-5 years ago. He has gone above and beyond what his work detail is and he is now doing electrical engineer and designing work. He is such a conscientious, hard worker and he does so much to support us. Plus he is going back to school for accounting. He is working so hard and he is so smart.

I love him so much. he is my bestf riend. I love that we can just hang out doing nothing but talking and watching TV and it is so much fun. I have felt closer to him in the last year than I have in a long time.

Do you ever feel like you are in a rut?

I am feeling that way lately. I feel like everyday is the same. It has been so hot this week that Emm and I can't get to the park. The only thing we get out for is grocery shopping or to get some lunch. I have been too tired to do much else. I don't even do my hair or make up. That would probably make a big difference. I just feel like everyday is the same. I am not depressed or anything. I am just having a phase where I don't feel like doing much. Maybe part of it is that I am just so tirede and hormones.

I have been having fun with Emm though. We go on "lunch dates" and read lots of books and talk. She is so goofy and silly. I think I am just feeling hard on myself because I usually do more than I have been. I have been trying to only have 2-3 days a week where I deep clean. Those are usually Mon, Wed and thurs. Mike has school on Mon and Wed so I do it when he is in class and the kids are in bed. It has given me more down time and time with Emm.

I think I just need to have time for myself. I miss having my weight watchers meetings and I even miss school, because it was for me. I need a project or something. I also know I need to read my scriptures and pray more. I am such a slacker. That would really help me.

I need to try to have a few days a week with a plan so Ihave soething new to look forward to. I am going to lunch w/ my best friend and getting my nails done next week. That will be fun!

That is the ramblings in my mind right now.

We are pleased to announce that............................

Our baby is a BOY! We both thought it was a boy. When the Tech said it was a boy Dawson turned to Mike and said "I told you guys!". It is a good thing it is a boy because Dawson has been adament that it is a boy. We are very excited and his name will be Peyton Andrew Price. Peyton is for Mike's favorite football player, Peyton Manning, and Andrew is after my lil brother who passed away at 7 weeks old from Meningitis. He was just 13 mos younger than me, so I never knew him.

Peyton is healthy and measuring 2 days ahead of my EDD, so he is basically right on time! He has loooong skinny legs, just like Dawson and Emmalee. His organs look good and he is the cutest little ultrasound baby in the world, lol. The ultrasound tech said he is one of the most active babies she has seen in a long time. I can't wait to meet him and have our family complete!

I love seeing the kids excitment! Dawson is estatic! He told me he will teach the baby to talk and run and play, just like he did w/ Sissy. lol. Emmalee seems to get it. She is only 2.5 so it really suprises me. Dawson was her age when she was born and he was oblivious to it all. She kept pointing to the u/s computer and saying "Dat ma baby in mommy's tummy!".

Emm and I were at the park today and she was introducing herself to all the kids there saying "Hi my name is Sissy. I have a baby in my tummy (she proceeded to show her belly then)What your name?" It was very cute!

I am excited to shop. Since it has been over 5 yrs since I have had a baby boy, I need to buy a lot of new boys clothes. I also want to get a new bedding set. I used the noah's ark theme for Dawson and Emm and I am sick of it, lol.

There is lots of excitment today!

16 weeks..21-22 weeks to go!

I heard my little beans heartbeat!! It was 155. All my kids have been around there so no prediction from that. At first he couldn't find it. He went right around where the middle of my uterus was and nothing. Then he went lower and voila. I always carry very low...not fun near the end, except labor is faster, .

I opted not to take the triple screen again. I have seen too many false positives and don't want to worry. Besides that I will love this baby no matter what so it doesn't matter to me. He wants me to wait till 18 weeks to get my u/s :(. I called right after I got out of the office to make my appt. they said "Wanna come in tomorrow?". I so wanted to say yes! My appt is 9/20 at 3:30. I can't wait to find out what this baby is and see my baby again!!

My BP was 135/70..not bad for me. I only gained 1/2 a pound, yay me! So I went and got a wendy's frosty to celebrate!


I am so tired, but very happy. I noticed something today. I was talking with a friend about wishes. I realized I may not have a perfect life, but I must be pretty satisfied. It took me forever to think of a wish. I finally thought have having my home remodeling done. I have a wonderful husband, 2 gorgeous kids, I am carrying a healthy baby. I have great friends, I am atleast halfway done with school, Mike got a raise again! I am happy with my life.

We went camping up near Sunrise Ski Resort this weekend. It was deep in the mountains. I couldn;t believe how lush and green the forest was this year. That is what happens when you actually have a summer monsson season. It was absolutely beautiful! We saw a bear. I wish I could have found my camera. I still haven't found it.

My only disappointment was that I did not see one Elk or Deer this year. I have been up there 7 times for labor day. Each year we see less and less deer and elk. The first 3 years there were tons. Before we had kids we used to take midnight four wheeler runs. I remember on year we rode around Green's Peak and rode almost alonside about 20 Elk. It was awesome. So I was sad at seeing none. They are gorgeous animals!

The kids had a blast playing with their cousins. Poor Emmalee. She was playing with some bubbles and got them all over her hands and rubbed her eyes. We had to flush her eyes. She did not like that. Mike's cousin had some eye patch bandages. She really didn't need it, but she kept saying : "I want Ban aid". So we put one on and she was happy. I am waiting for my MIL to send pics of her with her patch, lol.

It rained a lot. It didn't get too heavy, more of just drizzly. We watched movies nad played cards in the tents alot.

It was a very nice and relaxing weekend. I look forward to next year. We will have an addition to our brood. This will be the first time that only one person on Mike's side of the family will ahve a new baby. Usually there are atleast 2 new babys every 2-3 years. There are 8.5 grandkids. It is cute to see them growing up and loving eachother!

I am either 14 weeks one day or 15 weeks 5 days preggo today..who knows, lol. I have been feeling this baby move and slither for a few weeks. Today I am feeling definant kicks. It is such an awesome feeling and I am relishing it since it might be the last time I experience this. I have loved this baby since before I even got preggo, but it is so incredible how much closeness and love you feel when you finally feel the baby move. It is like a confirmation and connection. I love it!!!

In a few short weeks we will find out who this bean is. I should have my big u/s in 2-3 weeks. I can't wait! I wanna know if we are having a boy or girl.

I wonder if I still have readers, lol.

It seems like I don't have time to get on more than once a month now. Things are busy. I have to drive Dawson to school every morning and pick him up and I have just been having fun having alone time w/ Emmalee! On top of that I have been ultra tired. I wake up on empty. I am still able to keep up with everything, barely. I am 14 or almost 16 weeks according to my 2 due dates. The tiredness should be gone. Mike reminded me that I have 2 kids and a big house to keep up with, so no wonder I am tired. It is sweet that he understands.

I am feeling the baby move and I am loving it! So I am guessing that my due date is closer to the almost 16 weeks edd. We shall see. I should find out in about 3-4 weeks what we are having. I am so excited!!! I think we have settled on names.

Girl: Brynnlee Laurise (Brynn for short) Laurise is my MIL and mom's middle names together (Laura and Louise)

Boy: Peyton Andrew. Peyton is Mike's fave boys name and I love it too. Andrew is after my baby brother that died at 7 weeks of spinal meningitis.

Dawson is so excited about the baby. He asks me almost every day how big the baby is now or if the baby can hear or cry yet, lol. Emmalee on the other hand is in denial. She will tell you where the bab y is, but if you ask her if she wants a baby you get a flatout "NO!"> lol she will have to get over it eventually right? She will stick her belly out and tell us she has a baby in her tummy, lol.



That is all for now.

I feel like I am finding confidence again

I have never had a lot of confidence with my intelliegance. I am dyslexic and it really hits me hard in math, especially complex math or counting lots of money. I had lots of jobs that got my confidence down because of that. I have also felt like my opinions are always important or solid enough to be sure of. It seems like it is changing a little.

I am working on a paper for an English class. The paper is on Global Warming. At first I was at a lose. I had to come up with three theories as to why it has come about. I only had the pollution/greenhouse effect. Then I got deeper into the research and found a correlation between the sun's heat rising. My last theory which I still need to find more evidence on is the earth's natural process. I have half of my first paper rough-drafted. I just need to add concrete evidence and quotes.

My last paper I get to choose one of those theories and take a stand on it. I am going to do the Greenhouse effect because it is more aboundant in research. I feel like I am using my brain for more than doing the family budget and changing diapers. It is such a gratifying feeling. I actually feel skind of smart!

I have always put off getting my degree and even when I started I was scared and had little faith in myself. Lately I am not so scared. I have confidence that I will be able to teach. I still have a lot to learn, but I can't wait to do it. I am also excited to take the classes to teach my kids and help them with school. I have a new confidence and I hope it will continue to grow and my experience will help me be a better teacher.

The only part that makes me nervous is lesson plans and organizing and creating them. Will I be able to make lessons long enough and organized enough. A friend told me not to worry cuz that is why you major in teaching, so they can teach you how to do it. I am just not a nagtural, orgaized planner. I am a procrastinator. So I hope to change that. I am so excited about starting the teaching program.

Another thing I am thinking about is how it will be after the kids are all in school. I love being a SAHM and I will NOT change that. It is so embedded inme. My mom wasn't able to stay home with us. She had to be the primary bread winner since my dad was so sick. She did her best, but had so much stress that she wasn't home in the morning to make sure we were presentable for school. I looked pretty funny most of the time. I didn't have a mom that kept a good eye on my school work or made sure I did it. I want a schedule where I can do that.

I love being home with my kids. I will stay home till my last kid is in school. I have decided atleast for the first few years I want to substitute teach. I can have a more flexible schedule and not have to deal with grading and lesson plans and have more time for the kids. Then when they are older I will settle in with my own class.

Anyways I have been thinking about how exciting it will be to have a career. Also the thought of having a 2 income household sounds awesome. Still I will hold off till the all kids are in school. Being a SAHM mom is worth the sacrafices to me. Then when the kids are older and our whole family is here we will have the money to have a lot of fun.

Those are my brain ramblings tonight.

It's been a while.......

Things have been busy here. My due date has changed from 2/12 to 2/22. So instead of 10 w 4d, I am at 9 weeks now. I went in for my u/s last week and that is when my edd changed. Oh well. My Dr said that since I will be most likely having my baby early, it is better to keep the later due date just to be safe. I was able to see the baby's little heartbeat. That is always such a relief and wonderful thing to see. It feels so much more real now.

I am so excited about having another lil one! It hasn't been easy though. I have never had morning sickness before, but with this one I do. I have only thrown up once though, so I thank my lucky stars for that. I have been taking Unisom and Vitamin B6 and that helped for a few weeks. It isn't helping so much anymore. I have been feeling nauseous on and off throughout the day now. It atleast helps me to know my pregnancy is going good if I feel like crap, lol.

I think the biggest thing making me sick is the heat. It has been over 110 forever now. I feel like I am so lazy all the time. I usually love taking my kids out and doing fun stuff, not anymore. I can't wait till the heat is gone.

I am taking a english class this summer. It has been so crazy. It will be over in 2 weeks and I will be so happy. I am taking a break from school till after the baby is born. I am going to go to Ottawa University. I had a few pre req's to finish befor I could transfer to ASU and then I would have to wait till the kids are in school to do it. At Ottawa, I have enough pre req's to start the teaching program and I can take it at my own pace, even one class at a time. So hopefully I can be finished by the time my last baby starts school. I feel really good about this decision! So probably in april or so I will start again, 1 class at a time. I am so happy I am going back to finish my degree. It hasn't been easy, but it is something important to me.


Dawson starts Kindergarten on 8/9. Then on 8/13 my baby will be 5. It is kinda freaky. I cried his 1st day of preschool and that was 3 hours 3 days a week. Now it is 5 days a week and all day school. I am gonna miss him. Though at times I can't wait for school to start. He is so bored at home. It will be neat to have some alone time with Emmalee before the baby comes. I love those kids so much. I look at them and I can't believe they are mine. I feel blessed.


I love my husband so much. he has been so helpful around the house. I haven't been feeling so good and I have been so busy with research papers, so he has help so much. He is also being supportive about lightening my babysitting load now. I got rid of 2 kids that were a ton of hours. I will be watching 2 kids (a boy Emmalee's age and a newborn baby girl) starting in September. It will be 1.5 days a week. The best part is I will make about $400/month for that 1.5 days a week. I feel I can handle that.. It would be all day monday and about 4 hours on wed. I can do it.

Well, I am off to bed.

Well...............

I just found out that I am preggo! I took a test last week that had the {+}/(-) results. I was a retard and read it wrong. I saw 2 lines and was estatic! Well I posted on my birthclub, called Mike, etc. Then I realized I read it wrong. Well I bought a test w/ just 2 lines as the result and well, I got 2 lines! I am still in shock. It was faint, but it was there! I didn't keep track this month but I am guessing I am due on Feb 13th!

I have been in a slump

I am gonna try to get out of it though. I haven't been good or true to myself in a lot of ways. It is just easier not to do anything sometimes, but it sure doesn't feel as good. Know what I mean? I have gained 20 lbsm, and I can't get back on track. I can think of a million things that keeps me from doing it, the key I guess is to just push those things out and just do it like I did before. I can't fit into any of my jeans, so I am just wearing gouchos, skirts and sweats..pretty much anything without buttons :(. I sold all my close from this size. So if I gain anymore weight I will have to be naked. That should be motivation, right? I have just let the stress get to me and so I eat. I need to get back into doing other thnings like clean or bead when I am stressed.

I am very happy that I will hardly be babysitting at all this summer..just like 2 hours a day, during naptime..so hard huh? lol. One of my friends is going to be doing a stirytime play group every monday. They will have playtime, a craft, storytime and snack time. It will take the place of the family fun van since they can't do it during the summer due to the heat. Then on Wed they have storytime at the library, the evenings will be for swimming lessons for the kids and I want to go play at the mall park once a week and swim once a week. I want to keep busy and have a blast with my kids this summer.

Dawson will be starting kindergarten August 8th, and it is all day (8:30-2:50) so my window with him is almost closed. I thought it was with preschoool, but that was only 3 days a week for 3.5 hours. This is all day. It makes me sad. He had his preschool graduation yesterday. We videotaped and filmed it. They played the graduation music, and they walked up and got their "diploma. They had little paper crowns that they had their names on and decorated. It was really cute.

His teacher's all said how much they are going to miss him. One of the aides said that he was the sweetest, most well behaved kid of all of them! I love hearing that. His speech teacher commented on how far he has come. I am so happy with the work they did. I was really the only one who understood him when he started and he would hardly talk or look at other people before. Now everyone can understand him and he is social! The letter F is the only one he still has trouble with. I am a pleased and proud momma! I can't believe he will be 5 in August!

He will actually start Kindergarten 5 days before he turns 5. I have had a few people say that their kids weren't ready to start kindergarten right when they turned 5. Their kids got held back. I feel very good in my decision. His teacher and speech teacher are very confident that he is ready for kindergarten. Plus he will be going to a really awesome charter school. He has been on the waiting list since he was Emm's age. They have a back to basics philosophy. They have the spalding phonetics program, which is the best for teaching phonics and reading. They have art, music, spanish, etc. The coolest thing is that they have different levels of each grade. It gets around the "No one is left behind" law. So in each grade he will be at his level. It is a great school that I hear nothing but good things about.

Emmalee is a full fledge kid now! It is crazy how fast time goes by. SHe can say just about anything. It is weird, when you call her name she will say "What?" if yo say no she will ask "Why". She comprehends so much at 2. He talking is awesome. She doesn't have the speech problem Dawson had. She loves dress up. She wears her "Cinderella Pretties" all day.

I just love my kids so much! I am a blessed Mommy! I am excited to have time with them this summer!

I am making a vow this summer to have fun with my kids, lose weight, get my house organized and get more social. My best friend is mving to North Carolina next week. I am gonna bawl like a baby when she leaves. I know I need to get out of my comfort zone and get involved more with my other friends. I used to have the easiest time making friends. DOn't get me wrong I have a lot of friends, but I really don't hang out with anyone. I am afraid to try for anothe rbest friend cuz it takes a lot of time and work and I just get afraid it won't happen so I don't try. I need to get out of my comfort zone I guess. I do wanna be social like I used to be.

We have been TTC since March and Nada. I know it really isn't that much time, but for me it is. I got preggo with Dawson the first month and Emm came from a few missed BCP's. So this is a long time to me. I am okay with it, except that I am afraid I am gonna get too comfortable with my two that i won't want more if it takes too long. I might just be keeping my hopes down so I don't get disapointed. Who kows. All I can say is that it gives me more time with my two kiddos though. Maybe it isn't the right time. I am just putting it in God's hands and when it is time it will happen.

Go Phoenix Suns! They are doing awesome! I wanna see them go all the way! I think watching a good basketball game is one of my fave things to do with my hubby. We have a blast!

Sorry for all the rambling, I am just getting my thoughts out.

Deep thoughts by Patti

Well it is almost 1 am so maybe this will only make sense to me. I was listening to some old tunes from highschool. Of course I began to reminisce. I thought of things in the past. Ofcourse everything in the past is glorified. You see it thru rose colored glasses..well for the most part. Then I remembered how stressful certain times were, I had put the bad behind me. Why is it hard to see the forest for the trees during certain times? It's kind of funny.

I got my IUD out today!

I had some cramping afterwards, but I am so excited! My Dr said that as long as I have a normal period next week (It was just spotting I had this week) we can TTC this month! He told me he hopes to see me in 2-3 months! I so hope. I have always gotten preggo easy before. I just get scared this time I won't. He gave me a prescription for chewable prenatals! I hate my Target horsepill prenatals. These are big horsepills too but atleast they are chewable and taste somewhat like vitamin C. Mike is so excited! It is so weird he wasn't completly ready with Dawson, but he knew it was time, Emm was a suprise and he was scared for a few days, but now he is so ready!

My little princess will be 2 tomorrow! I am happy but sad that she is no longer a baby. I bought some heart pancake milds and I am gonna make her a Princess pancake breakfast in the morning! She has been telling everyone that she is two and that she is gonna have a Ci-rella (Cinderella) party!

Well, Dawson is calling me and I have a huge mess to clean so thar's it for now

Have I mentioned...................

That I really don't enjoy babysitting? I have only been back to it for 2 weeks and I am already burnt out. I get annoyed with the screaming, hyperness, disobedience, crying, messes, kids not listening to me, other kids bad habit rubbing off on mine, putting my schedule on hold, not being able to make all the Dr appts, etc that I need to make, not being able to get out with just my kids, naptime wars and ost of all it takes so much time away. I just want a break


Some days I don't mind babysitting, but today I am just done. Sorry to vent but I am so tired. I cleaned till 2 am this morning and woke up at 5:30 to babysit. Maybe that is why I am burnt out??? I just want to go back to bed...... Plus I love when it is just me and my kids only .

It has been 10 years..........

On Feb 29th, 1996, my daddy passed away. It just hit me today that it has been 10 years. I have gotten to that point where I try not to think about it too much or I still get choked up. I miss him so much. He always had a way of making me laugh when I was crying, we were too much a like way too stubborn and we butted heads at times, but he was the one I was closest to. It makes me so sad that he wasn't physically there at my wedding. I know in my heart he was still there, but it just isn't the same, ya know. Then the thing that kills me the most is that he hasn't been there too hold my kids and see them grow up. he couldn't wait to have grandkids. he always told me how he wanted me to get married and have kids. Emm would have had him wrapped around his finger. he would have been the best grandpa.

Sorry, lilke I said before I don't let myself think deeply about him too often. Don't get me wrong not a day goes by that I don't think about him, but I just don't let myself get too into it, ya know?

I just miss him terribly. I want to hear one of his stories that used to bore me to tears. I wish I could remember more of them, or I would love to hear him sing, or hug me.

I do kow I will see him again someday though..that gives me peace.

Gosh it has been a while!

I am in school again and very busy. I am taking math and communications right now. the math is pretty easy. My communications class is harder. The teacher is very picky on her expectations. I work very hard on my essays, but my first one didn't meet her standards. She teaches at DeVry which is a post graduate school, so I guess that is why she is more picky. I bhave always gotten A's and B's on my essays, not that first one. I am doing great on the assignments, tests and projects though. I have a midterm I have to take tonight, ugh! So far I have an A in Math and a B in Communications. I have been figuring things out and I am pretty postitive I can get my AA next May or during the summer. I have to take 2 maths oover summer break though..yucky. But I just want to get my first degree over with. I am so glad that I already had 1/2 of my credits so I wasn't starting from scratch.

I am babysitting 2 new kids. They are brother and sister. The brother is 3 and he is hearing impared and his sister is 6.5 mos and she has all her hearing! They are wonderful, easy kids! The baby is just the sweetest. I feel blessed to have them. I am so proud of Dawson. he doesn't even act like Perry (the boy) is different. They are the best of friends. I think this ex[perience is great for me an dmyu kids to learn sign language and I also want my kids to be great with special needs kids.

We have the fron room, kids rooms, and bathroom refloored. The front, kitchen and bathroom are all painted. we got a new sink, cabinet and mirror set for the bathroom. I lkove it it loos totally vintage. I need to get my picture software downloaded on my laptop so I can share pics! It is nice to finally have my house how I want it after 2.5 years!

We got our tax return back and we bought a new microfiber couch set. I love it! Here is what it looks like:








The couch has nail head trim and the coffee table set legs are more copper colored instead of silver. We should get them in a week or two!

On the bad side, I have gained almost 15 lbs! I am at 200 again. My back is hurting cuz of it. I have to lose it fast so that we can TTC. Miuke got me a new bike and a bike carriage for the kids. We are going riding every other day and tomorrow I am starting my weight watcher's diet again. I am feeling a little down because of it. I could be preggo by now if I had my butt in gear :(

That is it for now.

OOPs! Here is the pic of the front room!

Just some random happenings

THis will be a quick update, but a good one. Mike has been done working his 2nd job for 3 weeks now! I haven't been so happy in ages! I enjoy having him home more. The kids are happier too! Most importantly Mike is so much happier! He is more energetic and more flirty and it feels like when we were first married in some ways...except it is better since we know eachother so much better in so many ways now. I am so happy!

We have started on our remodeling. We have laid the laminate wood floors in the front room. I found the cutest rugs at Target!(here's a pic)

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We have also done the hallway, and Dawson's room and Emm's room. It looks awesome! This weekend we will do the kitchen and family room and maybe the play/guest room, we'll see! Then the weekend after that our bedroom and lastly the dinning room! It looks so classic and totally mystyle now! We are getting the high victorian baseboards and we are gonna add wayne'scoat to the guest/kids bathroom and Emm's room! I am having so much fun decorating, it is a huge passion for me.

I also got my new stove, washer and dishwasher. All of them work better than the old dinosaur appliances we had. I LOVE them all!

School starts next week. I am only taking 6 credits instead of nine. I am taking Math and Communications. It will be fun, not! I am thankful that I can slowly start to finish my degree I started over 10 years ago though. I still don't know for sure what I wanna major in, but I am glad I'm back. I am glad both Mike and I are going back. We will both be the 1st college graduates in our families! I wan to be an example to our kids and really show them that a college education is so important!

We have had alot of sickness around the house. A few weeks ago Mike had the stomach flu, then Dawson had an ear infection and Mike and I both got nasty colds and the kids got mild colds, then Saturday thru MOnday Emm had the stomach flu. I got thrown up on again. I guess it is like a badge of honor for a mom, or something, lol! I did enjoy how cuddly Emm was while she was sick though. I knew she was feeling better today cuz she didn't want to be held.

Emm is talking in 3-4 word sentences now! It is crazy she seems a little advanced for her age. I enjoy listening to her cahtter away all the time. With Dawson he was hardly talking at this age and it worried me. I know he is okay now, but when you a first time mom that can worry you and you can feel like it's your fault. I know it isn't now. Then I see how she can't do some things Dawson did at this age like put puzzles together and recognize all his shapes and colors (ofcourse he would point to the right one instead of saying it). Anyways it is funny how different they are! Emm is so into CInderella right now. She watches it all the time, talks about her all the time and wears her Cinderella dress up stuff all the time. It is too cute!

Dawson is talking more clearly everyday. His preschool has really helped him. They tell me how ell behaved he is at school too. I wish he would always be that way here! He is looking like he might be able to start kindergarten in the fall if he keeps progressing like he is. I also want to start teaching him to read. He recognizes letters and names of kids in his class that starts with certain letters and I am feeling like he is ready I just want to try to find a Phonics program that is fun, yet eduactional. He is such a sweet boy and I love seeing how much he is maturing lately!

Well, that is it for now, I am off to sleep!