The Math....

I went in for my Weight Watcher's weigh in today I am down 2 more pounds! I am down to 221 lbs. That is 4 lbs from prepreggo w/ Emm weight, 5.5 lbs to my 10% goal and 76 lbs to go. I have lost 17.6 lbs in 6 weeks. That averages out to about 3 lbs (it is rounded up a little ;). So if I keep an average of 3 lbs a week, then by Labor Day (we have a campout/family reunion w/ Mike's family labor day every year) I should be either somewhere around 170-145 (or less! I might go beyond my goal weight when I hit it, I'll decide then!). That is only 6 months away! I have been playing with the numbers and it is exciting. Ofcourse I know that I might hit a few plateaus, but I know I will for sure be below 200 lbs by then. I want to go hiking and just do the things I used to enjoy while camping (before I had all this extra weight on me). I am so excited about this. I will feel like myself again. I am so glad that I finally said enough is enough.

I have been takingthe kids for walks atleast every other day. I haven't felt up to that in ages. Not just because of my weight, but my mood. I am feeling better in some aspects :).

I know the weight alone won't make me feel better. I am also trying to better myself. I am trying to be a better mommy and a better friend. I am having a hard time in one aspect with losing weight. I don't eat as much as I used to for emotional reasons. So now I have to face some of my problems and things I don't like about myself. It has been hard.



Well, until next time..buh-bye!

My current Stats!

My Begining Weight: 238.6 lbs
My current Weight: 223.2
Total Lost: 15.4 lbs
Total left to lose: 78lbs
My current Goal: to hit my 10% weight of 215.6, 7.8 lbs to go!

My measurements on Jan 12th 2005:

Waist: 47”
Chest: 50”
Hips: 54”
Arms: 15”
Thighs: 29”

My measurments on February 16th 2005:
Waist: 44” (lost 3") 15" to go
Chest: 46.5” (lost 3.5") 8.5" to go
Hips: 52” (lost 2 Inches) 14" to go
Arms: 15” (lost 0") 2" to go
Thighs: 27” (lost 2") 5" to go

Total Lost: 10.5"
Total left to lose: 44.5"

Week 5 weigh in:

I lost 4.6 more lbs. My grand total for 5 weeks is 15 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not too shabby! I am feeling a lot better. I have more energy and I am happier because I feel in control!

The Schedule Day 1......

It is almost 1 pm here. We have gone by the schedule all day. So far so good! I cut my computer time down. I have almost all my daily chores done, except my flylady missions for the last 3 days..lol. I will do those when I get back from my Weight Watcher's meeting tonight. I have spent more time with Dawson today..it has been nice. I usually eat lunch standing up and grabbing a little here and there or infront of the TV. Today I sat at the table and ate with Dawson, it was really nice. We talked and laughed!!! WE did preschool too. I had a lesson on body parts and how they help us to see, hear, run and play. WE did some songs about the subject, then I put one of my walk away the pounds tapes on and had him do some of the workout with me so he can notice how his joints bend, etc. Then we cut out parts of faces from magazines and made a person collage. It was really fun and he loved it. He and Emmalee are in her room playing right now. Soon we will do story time and then it is nap time for Emmalee & quiet time for Dawson. Then I can fold clothes and make a few bracelets. I haven't felt like a chicken with my head cut off today..like I usually do..lol. I will admit, I yelled at Dawson once today. But then apologized and he apologized for not listening.

All in all it has been a peaceful day so far...there is still 5.5 hours till the kids bed time..lol.

it's a start...

Okay, I have had a shower before 3 pm for 2 days in a row!!!! It was great. It really makes me feel like doing things after I showered. I didn't pray or read my scriptures though. I am really gonna try tomorrow.

I was watching Nanny Rescue (or whatever it is called on ABC). First off I could not believe how disrespectful those 4 yr old twins were. I don't know how their parent's didn't lose it with them!!! Especially when the told her mom to back off and called her a butt pie. I am old fashioned and that would have been grounds for a swat on the hynie! Then you feel so bad for that poor little boy! Always the scapegoat for the things that his sisters do. That made me so mad!! It made me realize that Dawson isn't as as I thought too.

Anyways, I really liked the corner. I have done time out and it didn't really work. Probably because I would never get on Dawson's level when I would take him there. Then I would keep talking to him and tell him to face the wall, etc. I like how they made the s apologize afterwards and the parent's said they loved them afterwards today. I tried the nanny's method today. It worked. dawson stayed in the corner, and I never had to raise my voice at all! I raising my voice at him, it makes me feel like a bad mommy.

Then I really liked how she wrote out a schedule for the family. I am such a dork, but I made a schedule today. I am really going to try to stick to it too. That means less computer, but I wanna see if it will help me feel more structured (I don't like structure, but being the procrastinator that I am, I need it). I am also hoping it will help the kids and help me to spend more time with them. There are many days when I don't. I am either cleaning or on the computer and I feel bad about that. I alloted spaces for me to shower, workout, do my scriptures and prayer, and cleaning. Then the whole evening will be to relax..I like that! I hope that it works!

I just have to say that that was my first time watching Nanny rescue, but I really liked it!

We'll I need to fish cleaning so I can watch Gilmore s! Good night all!

Looking forward to things......

I have had a thought running thru my head for days now. It all began with an overwhelming feeling of being burnt out. 'Burnt out from what?", you may ask. If you are a SAHM like myself you wouldn't even have to ask that question

I just feel that my days repeat themselves over and over again. Dawson wakes me up every morning. I get up, feed the kids, try to figure out how the house got messy between now and last night when I cleaned it.

Somedays, I get right into my housework and it seems like everything is in-sync, and I feel that I have control over the housework. I don't get y with the kids, nothing gets to me. I love those days. That might last a few days or a week, but then I am back to my other days.

Those days I wake up and feel burnout. Another day of housework, grumpy kids (and grumpy me!), a day with out order. I may wake up and the house is clean, but by noon, I feel like I have to deep clean the whole house again. I don't even want to do it, but I will. I clean the whole house. The whole time I am being interupted by one of my kids every 5 minutes. When I am finally finished, I know that I wasn't as thorough as I would like to be. Who has the time for that? I know there are still dirty clothes in the laundry room, or the clothes need to be put away. I just can't do anymore. I stop and still feel guilty. Finally, it is 8 o'clock p.m. and I can get out of my pajamas (I have had them on all day) and take a shower. Then I put on the clean pajamas that I will wear all day the next day.

How did I let myself get this way? I do it because I love my husband and my children. I wouldn't trade them for anything....BUT What about me? Do I even know who I am anymore?

I never had the perfect self image, but at one time I was pretty confident with myself. I worked on my hobbies such as sports, scrapbooking and singing among others. I could find time to curl up and read a good book (I miss those days). I took care of myself and loved to do my hair or get new clothes.

Fast forward to now. I have more pajamas and grubby clothes than I do normal clothes, My favorite hairstyle is pulling it up in a pony tail or just doing nothing to my hair at all. Yah I wear make up, but usually it is yesterdays leftover makeup. Gross I know, but sometimes I am too tired to wash it off at night. I have a lot of extra weight, I don't even look like me anymore.

Where is the balance? I need the balance between my DH and kids, household duties and time for myself. Sure I watch TV or play around on the internet, which I enjoy. What about the other things, like reading, singing or building on my spirituality? I have put all that on the back burner.

That is when I realized that I have to somehow find some time for myself. NOt on the computer or watching TV time, but actual quality time. I read somewhere that not finding time for yourself can cause depression and other problems. We all need to LOOK FORWARD TO THINGS . Even if it is small things.

I am going to start with Taking a shower every morning (Or atleast as much as I can). I always feel more in control when I do that. I am more awake and I feel like the day can start. I need to do one small thing a day. Make some jewelry..which I have been making more time for lately. Singing. One thing I absolutely have to do is Read my scriptures every day..even if it is a verse or two. I need to pray..even if I have to hideout in the bathroom with the door locked. I have to do those things. I need to find good books to read and small projects to do. I need to wake up feeling like I have something..even if it is small, to look forward to, I need to just stop and not worry about the daily problems for a few minutes a day.

My first 3 things to work on are Praying in the morning, reading atleast a few verses of my scriptures and taking a shower. I will then add on as those things become habit.

I challenge all of my internet SAHM friends to find just a few sall things to do for yourself every day!!!

Holy Shnike!!!!

Week 3, I lost down 2.6 more lbs!!! My total loss for 3 weeks is: *drumroll*: 11 lbs!!!! I am 227.8 now!! 12 more lbs and I reach my 1st 10% goal!! Next month baby!! I will do measurements next week (scary!).

I can't believe how much difference I feel 11 lbs lighter. My clothes that cut into my tummy 3 weeks ago are comfy! I am so happy and amazed that I did this!!! There are 11lbs that I will never have again. The best feeling was calling Mike and telling him how much I lost! I love how supportive he has been!

Some Happy Bloggings... My children's birth stories.

The Birth Of Dawson Michael Price

Dawson was born on 8/13/2001 @ 12:19 am

He weighed 6 lbs, 5 oz and was 20 1/2 inches long

The last trimester of my pregnancy was very slow, since I was on bed rest for most of it. It was a very special time though. I loved to feel Dawson move around. I especially loved when I could see my stomach move. Mike and I would spend lots of nights talking to Dawson and trying to make him move my stomach.

I knew for a few months that I would be having Dawson early because of my pressure problems. So I was so excited when I got the call to come down to the hospital to have my baby. I started crying a little. I came to the hospital scared of what to expect during delivery. I was very fortunante because I had a very easy and safe delivery. I had been dialated to 4cm for a few weeks (without going in to labor), so I had an advantage right there. Once they gave me the pitocin ( to put me into labor). I quickly got the epidural so I never felt too much pain. I just remember having the shakes a lot (which really scared me. I was very fortunate to have my mom, Tiffany Larsen and Lanae Udall in there with Mike and I during the labor (everyone but Mike and my Mom left during the delivery). All in all my labor was only about 5 to 5 ½ hours. And then We had our little Dawson. I was such an incredible feeling to see him. I remember crying and just feeling so peaceful. He came out with the biggest pouty face. He wasn't crying too much at first so that scared me a little. But he was just fine! It is amazing how much love you have for your child from the moment you lay eyes on them. He was so perfect. He had a headful of hair (which he later lost!) and big, big eyes. He is the most beautiful baby. After a few weeks mother hood was not scary (once I got the hang of it) It has been such a wonderful time in my life. I love Dawson so much. He is such a special person. We are very fortunate that he has been a really easy baby. He has slept through the nite (12 hours) since 2 ½ months, he hardly ever cries and when he does it's not for very long. He is always happy. He wakes up smiling. Where he inherited that I will never know. He is so much fun, always smiling and giggling. Everybody always comments on howcute, happy and good he is. I feel so lucky to have him as my son. I look forward to having many more children with Mike. Having Dawson has made my love multiply so much for Mike. I love him so much. He is truly my best friend.

Emmalee Monique Price's Birth Story

Emmalee was born on 3/10/2004 at 3:27 p.m.

She weighed 7 lbs, 9 oz and was 20 inches long

Emmalee is finally here!!! We are so happy to have her and feel that sweet spirit only a baby can bring to a home! Here is how she came to us:
On Thurs March 4th, I went to my weekly OB visit. I told him how I had been starting to see stars (or flashes of light) and my pressure was kinda high. I had the pressure problem with Dawson too, and so my doctor knew to watch me. With all those problems,He was really concerned. He told me to go back on bedrest that weekend. He said that he was going out of town in a few hours or else he would have put me on the induction list right then and there He made me go to the hospital and get a non stress test and work , to check for toxemia. He wanted to deliver my baby. So I went on bedrest and went in again on Monday. My BP was 163/90. It had been high at home too. So the first thing my doctor said when he cam in was "it's time for you to have this baby", (I was 38 weeks preggo). So he stripped my membranes (OUCH!), which never put me into labor, but it was worth a try. He prefered for me to have her that day, but I never went into labor. He also put me on the induction list and more BP medicine. Well, wednsday morning, March 10th at 5 am I got a call from the hospital to come down to get induced. We got there at 6:30 am. They gave me pitocin at 8:30. OH and i was already dialated to a 3 and 85% effaced. So I would go into labor fast w/ the pitocin, right? Wrong? I had contractions, but they hardly hurt. I wasn't in labor yet, grrr... At 1:30 Dr layton came and broke my water. I figured we would have a baby maybe by 6 that night. 20 minutes later I was ready for the epidural. I had to wait a little while until the DR came to give it to me. He tried forever to get it in, but couldn't get in the right spot. So I was in pain. Well, finally he got it in. The nurse checked me and I was at a 9 1/2. Whoa!!!! The epidural never kicked in. It took a little edge off, but I was still in pain big time. The pressure was so unbelievable. My doctor came, I pushed thru three contractioins and at 3:27 pm, On March 10th 2004, Emmalee Monique Price was born! 3 minutes shy of a 2 hour labor. Thank goodness it was short. because it was so painful. Emmalee weighed in at 7 lbs, 9 oz and was 20 inches long. She is so beautiful!!! I think she looks a lot like her Daddy! I am so loving having a boy and a !

*Oh a side note...right beofre I was to push, I told Mike that this was our last child. I was in that much pain. I absolutely meant it at the time. Ofcourse now I want 1 or 2 more. The things we say whiole we are in labor.