It has been 10 years..........

On Feb 29th, 1996, my daddy passed away. It just hit me today that it has been 10 years. I have gotten to that point where I try not to think about it too much or I still get choked up. I miss him so much. He always had a way of making me laugh when I was crying, we were too much a like way too stubborn and we butted heads at times, but he was the one I was closest to. It makes me so sad that he wasn't physically there at my wedding. I know in my heart he was still there, but it just isn't the same, ya know. Then the thing that kills me the most is that he hasn't been there too hold my kids and see them grow up. he couldn't wait to have grandkids. he always told me how he wanted me to get married and have kids. Emm would have had him wrapped around his finger. he would have been the best grandpa.

Sorry, lilke I said before I don't let myself think deeply about him too often. Don't get me wrong not a day goes by that I don't think about him, but I just don't let myself get too into it, ya know?

I just miss him terribly. I want to hear one of his stories that used to bore me to tears. I wish I could remember more of them, or I would love to hear him sing, or hug me.

I do kow I will see him again someday though..that gives me peace.

Gosh it has been a while!

I am in school again and very busy. I am taking math and communications right now. the math is pretty easy. My communications class is harder. The teacher is very picky on her expectations. I work very hard on my essays, but my first one didn't meet her standards. She teaches at DeVry which is a post graduate school, so I guess that is why she is more picky. I bhave always gotten A's and B's on my essays, not that first one. I am doing great on the assignments, tests and projects though. I have a midterm I have to take tonight, ugh! So far I have an A in Math and a B in Communications. I have been figuring things out and I am pretty postitive I can get my AA next May or during the summer. I have to take 2 maths oover summer break though..yucky. But I just want to get my first degree over with. I am so glad that I already had 1/2 of my credits so I wasn't starting from scratch.

I am babysitting 2 new kids. They are brother and sister. The brother is 3 and he is hearing impared and his sister is 6.5 mos and she has all her hearing! They are wonderful, easy kids! The baby is just the sweetest. I feel blessed to have them. I am so proud of Dawson. he doesn't even act like Perry (the boy) is different. They are the best of friends. I think this ex[perience is great for me an dmyu kids to learn sign language and I also want my kids to be great with special needs kids.

We have the fron room, kids rooms, and bathroom refloored. The front, kitchen and bathroom are all painted. we got a new sink, cabinet and mirror set for the bathroom. I lkove it it loos totally vintage. I need to get my picture software downloaded on my laptop so I can share pics! It is nice to finally have my house how I want it after 2.5 years!

We got our tax return back and we bought a new microfiber couch set. I love it! Here is what it looks like:








The couch has nail head trim and the coffee table set legs are more copper colored instead of silver. We should get them in a week or two!

On the bad side, I have gained almost 15 lbs! I am at 200 again. My back is hurting cuz of it. I have to lose it fast so that we can TTC. Miuke got me a new bike and a bike carriage for the kids. We are going riding every other day and tomorrow I am starting my weight watcher's diet again. I am feeling a little down because of it. I could be preggo by now if I had my butt in gear :(

That is it for now.