Everything is fine

For those of you who don't know, I miscarried this last week. I have been on a roller coaster of emotions, but no worries I am so much better now (atleast emotionally). This has been a hard trial, but I have been blessed to see so many blessings through it.

Almost 2 weeks ago I went in to my first OB appt. I was 10 weeks along and still feeling tired, but not nauseous. I wasn't too concerned. When my Dr did the ultrasound it was obvious right away that something as wrong. There was no heartbeat and the baby was measuring at almost 7 weeks. Not good. I was heartbroken.

I cried a lot that day, took a nap and woke up feeling better. I thought I was okay. Then the next night it hit me really bad. I cried through the night. Finally I couldn't take it anymore and I woke Mike up. I cried in his arms for a long time.

He offered to give me a blessing. I am so glad that he did. In Febuary we had been given a very strong impression that it was time for another little one. Wel the blessing assured me that we did exactly what we were supposed to. This baby was meant to be. I was given some beautiful promises that bring me so much comfort.

I am so thankful for the gospel. I am so thankful that I am sealed to my family and ALL of my children. These two blessings are the most precious possesions that I have been blessed with.

It took almost 2 weeks for it to finally happen. As luck would have it Mike had Scout Camp this week. I kept praying that it would happen before he left so that he could go. Friday it was obvious it wasn't going to happen soon enough. I asked him if he could find a way to stay home. He made some calls, but nothing was arranged. So with faith in my heart I sent him to Scout Camp, praying that he could get back soon.

Thanks to some wonderful Ladies in my ward, Mike left Saturday Morning and was back Sunday night. We had sent the older 2 kids to my mom's forthe week so I could rest and mend. So it was just Mike, Peyton and I from Monday-Friday. Heavenly Father is so perfect and blessed me that Mike would already have time off and be home for me. I am so thankful for that.

He helped me around the hosue and with Peyton. He took me out and really helped to get my mind off things. I think that this trial also happened to help Mike and I have time together. We have always had an awesome marriage, but life gets busy and we can't always make time for "us". This week gave us that time to get to bond, get to know eachother again (does that sound wierd or do you know what I mean?) and bond spiritually. I really enjoyed that part of this week.

Through the last few months I have seen how Heavenly Father prepared me for this. I was able to make changes and habits that helped me grow spiritually before this happened. I needed that added stregnth.

I am so thankful for the Gospel and I know without a doubt that the church is true. I am so thankful for all the blessings that I have been blessed with throughout my life. I know that Heavenly father loves us all and knows what is best. I also know that when times seem toughest he carries us. I have seen this in my life so many times, but especially now and when my Dad died. I am so thankful for that.